Active in sports when i was in grade school (10 years old) until college, lucky to be able to attend various sports events for badminton and won most of it. Aside from badminton i play various combat sports. I love badminton, but i was thinking that this sports is too expensive for me as i always need to buy shuttlecocks and need someone else to play with me, added to that is your racket, grips, shoes and ect.... Thats why even though im good at badminton, combat sports will always be in my heart. Because i can use my body and the rest is history.
After college, i become busy finding my way to enter the corporate world and due to various reasons and excuses i didn't play much that i gain weight alot! I reach almost 90 kg and take note am just 4'11'. Checking my BMI was worst coz it will appear am obese, True i am!
I was too focus on earning money and my corporate world. The only exercise that i remember is walking from parking lot to my office and i often park very near because i felt to tired of walking. The rest of the day is am seating, and after work, i end up scrolling my phone until i fall as sleep. Then the same goes on and on! I thought i would never come back into sports again because i felt too fat, too lazy and easily get tired added to that are various surgeries i went through.
Whenever i see my double chin and my belly fats, it always makes me sad, i can't wear many of my cloths and damn i hate it. Added to that are the fact that when my classmates and friends sees me they will always say "you gain weight" damn bitch i know, it shows, and i can see my fats!
I tried loosing weight but it was too difficult, i am stress, depress and i end up piggying over and over again. I have No hope, i am fat, i know it! That's what i exactly say to myself! I tried million times to go back to sports but i failed in many attempts because it is only the mind that decide and not the body.
Until finally im back! I took me many many years! But what really inspires or motivate me to go back? Allow me to share it to you hoping that you will learn from it and be inspired as well to be fit again.
1. Health Reason
I have total of 6 major surgery (NOT COMETICS!). 2021 is right time because its now 2 years after my last surgery (i hope i wont get surgery again, Amen!). Whenever i look at the mirror i see my double chin, my belly fats and i really hate it. It makes me depressed, also i easily get tired of walking, loose my breath for a very little walk I wanna be healthy again so the next time i see myself in mirror i am smiling! That's exactly my goal.
2. Self-confidence
Most of the time because of our physical appearance we lost our confidence, we hide our belly fat from loose dress. Wearing abaya becomes my excuse hiding my fats. It is a sad reality! I hate looking at the fashion magazine because those bodies seems to be very impossible and i end up being jealous with those models.
3. Wear good cloths again
It was 2014 when i started gaining so much weight. This is also the time where i remember that i have to donate most of my cloths because it doesn't fit me, instead of exercising! Whenever i see beautiful dress i always step back because i know it doesn't suit me coz am fat, very FAT!
4. BTS
Discovering BTS and becoming an ARMY (BTS Fans) motivate me to take good care of my physical health. The 7 members has so much to offer aside from their good music, after discovering them i no longer watch comedy only them. I can see how busy they are, but they find time to take good care of themselves. This young boys become my inspiration! They are fit, and has human side, they have help me be mentally and emotionally stable, and love myself even better. They are indeed idol!
5. Minimalism
Oh here we go again with my minimalism mantra! (Hahaha) I owe a lots of things two years ago, i always thought that having this and that will make mylife even easier. But at times my items owe me. I would spend so much time cleaning and arranging my stuff, i need shelf to display them all together, but i came into the point that i find myself having alot! I have enough. So i decide to learn more about minimalism by reading books and watching blogs, i particularly like the book of Marie Kondo and Fumio Sasaki, read it they are life changing!
After becoming a minimalist i realize how much time i save from taking good care of my physical clutter. If before i have alot's of things to arrange, now, i can finish arranging in 15 minutes or less. For two years i declutter things that makes me stress specially mental and emotional stress. That i had more time to read books for self-development, then my physical aspect follows naturally. It was amazing! I believe that if your mental and emotional health is at good shape your physical health follows.
6. Old Age
Am now 32! Whenever i see my classmates i realize two things.
There are those who are like me fat and old than their real age what i hear from them is that they are busy that they do not have time to do exercise, but i know that those are just excuses like i do! On the other hand i saw some of my classmate who are in best shape and i can see that their personal outlook toward life are positive that i aspire to take good care of my self just like them.
7. Corporate shit
We have to admit that this pandemic time the corporate world has become even more stressful. People are fighting to survive and its too difficult, we seat down and idle for the whole 8 hours take some shit that was thrown to us, for many years end up in front of television, piggying, facebook ect on my days off.
But now, damn! i need to get into my fit and do walk if i cannot run, find a sports that i will enjoy and a fitness coach that will help me push myself towards my life. Even if i am tired from my 8-5 job, i see to it, i walk if i dont have fitness class, then i choose what i eat, i stay away from junk foods and see to it i burn my fats. I started slow, but am getting result. so i am happy!
Going back to fitness is not a joke, i have experience severe muscle pain on my few weeks, but i have to keep goin, because if i let myself down today, i no longer know when can i go back. In fitness the only limit we have is ourself, because our body will never go to the place where our mind and heart is absent!
So if you are reading this blog and you find yourself too fat, and living un-healthy life, make a change, decide to change for better, and become a better person that you want to be!
Goodluck!
